I thought I'd think about you every now and then
When the rain falls down in Kansas, when I hear "Dust in the Wind"
When I told you I was leavin' in that Exxon parking lot
I thought the world would keep on turnin', no one told me it would stop
And I'da called you crazy after we were through
If you'da told me that it'd take me all my life to get over you
I knew for a night, girl, I'd be drinkin' 'bout you
But it's years gone by and I'm still dreamin' 'bout you
Cross my heart till I die
I swear to God, I woulda never done what I did
If I knew that I'd be missin' you like this
Wake up in the mornin' in a bed with someone new
She don't know I still got pictures in that box instead of boots
You're the whiskey in my coffee, the unanswered in my prayers
You're the reason I'm still lonely even when the next best thing is layin' right here
I knew for a night, girl, I'd be drinkin' 'bout you
But it's years gone by and I'm still dreamin' 'bout you
Cross my heart till I die
I swear to God, I woulda never done what I did
If I knew that I'd be missin' you like this
I'da called you crazy after we were through
If you'da said they'd have to lay me six feet under just to get over you
I knew for a night, that I'd be drinkin' 'bout you
But it's years gone by and I'm still dreamin' 'bout you
Cross my heart till I die
I swear to God, I woulda never done what I did
If I knew that I'd be missin' you like this
I'd be missin' you like this
Missin' you like this
I was supposed to be sent away, but they forgot to come and get me
I was a functioning alcoholic till nobody noticed my new aesthetic
All of this to say, I hope you're okay, but you're the reason
And no one here's to blame, but what about your quiet treason?
And for a fortnight there, we were forever
Run into you sometimes, ask about the weather
Now you're in my backyard, turned into good neighbors
Your wife waters flowers
I wanna kill her
All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February
I took the miracle move-on drug, the effects were temporary
And I love you, it's ruining my life
I love you, it's ruining my life
I touched you for only a fortnight
I touched you
But I touched you
And for a fortnight there, we were forever
Run into you sometimes, ask about the weather
Now you're in my backyard, turned into good neighbors
Your wife waters flowers
I wanna kill her
And for a fortnight there, we were together
Run into you sometimes, comment on my sweater
Now you're at the mailbox, turned into good neighbors
My husband is cheating
I wanna kill him
I love you, it's ruining my life
I love you, it's ruining my life
I touched you for only a fortnight
I touched you
I touched you
I love you, it's ruining my life
I love you, it's ruining my life
I touched you for only a fortnight
I touched you
I touched you
Thought of calling ya, but you won't pick up
Another fortnight lost in America
Move to Florida, buy the car you want
But it won't start up till you touch, touch, touch me
Thought of calling ya, but you won't pick up
Another fortnight lost in America
Move to Florida, buy the car you want
But it won't start up till I touch, touch, touch you
You can just take what you want from me (Ooh ooh) Recognize the pain that's a part of me (Ooh ooh) (And maybe I) I'll never understand 'til I close my eyes (Ooh ooh) Give it everything I can 'til I lose my mind When it's 2:45, and I'm still up for the night When it's you and I (I just give up and not try)
I don't want to lose I don't want to lose myself Tell me how to use Tell me how to use your help Ooh I don't want to lose I don't want to lose I don't want to lose myself
Won't live forever, so why live today? Fold under pressure, so much I can takе I can't deal with the pressurе When it feels like forever Trying to breathe under water, yeah (So, why?) It's what you wanted, but not what you needed And my fears keep calling, yeah
When I first saw you, I thought you were perfect Now you are gone, I deserve it I'm feeling awful and worthless Threw what you bought in the furnace Saw that you called There's no service Yeah I look calm on the surface But look what underneath You were the only one that I ever loved The only one that I'd ever want In my life, I'd never run away You were the only one that I ever loved The only one that I'd ever trust With my life and all I wanna say Is that I'm sorry for the way I treated you I was conceited I no longer needed you I said goodbye and you said "I believe in you" I guess I'm blind 'cause I didn't see the truth You gave me everything I ever wanted I guess I just didn't want it at the time I really thought that my life would be better if you were gone I'm sorry I'm selfish
I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had
I dealt with suicidal thoughts for a minute It's hard to admit it but you pulled me out the dark and committed yourself to me and my music No matter what, nobody told you Your family and friends disowned you They tried to tell you I'm a waste of time I guess that they were right 'Cause everything they said about me was true I know that I knew it deep down and I see now that I should've fuckin' told you the truth I should've told you that you don't wanna be with somebody like me I'll take everything you have You don't wanna be with somebody like me I'll take everything you have You said
I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had I gave you everything Everything I gave you everything I had
Oxytocin making it all okay
When I come back down it doesn't feel the same
Now I'm sitting around waiting for the world to end all day
'Cause I couldn't leave you if I tried
You break me then I break my rules
Last time was the last time too
It's fucked up, I know, but I'm still
Outside of the party, smoking in the car with you
Seven nation army fighting at the bar with you
Tell you that I'm sorry, tell me what I gotta do
'Cause I can't let go
It's chemical
No, I can't let go
It's chemical
Every time I'm ready to make a change
You turn around and fuck out all my brains
I ain't tryna fight fate, it's too late to save face
I can't get away, maybe there's no mistakes
You break me then I break my rules
Last time was the last time too
It's fucked up, I know, but I'm still
Standing outside of the party, smoking in the car with you
Seven nation army fighting at the bar with you
Tell you that I'm sorry, tell me what I gotta do
'Cause I can't let go
It's chemical (Chemical)
No, I can't let go
It's chemical (Chemical)
No, I can't let go
It's chemical
I can't let go
It's chemical
Tell you that I'm sorry, tell me what I gotta do
No, I can't let go
It's chemical
I see, dead eyes on the verge of suicide
I realize it's not alright
I'll find my way to idolize it
In my eyes, I'll reach the sky (Yeah, ayy)
Runnin' outta breath, I been runnin' outta energy
Tellin' all your friends you don't wanna be a friend to me
You makin' up lies why am I gettin' all the penalties
I wanna talk about us without talking to an enemy
I've been broken down like my food in my stomach
Hatin' these feelings, but act like I love it
I don't wanna cheat nah, I want fair play
I don't wanna crash land like an airplane
I want you back but when you act like that
Like a one-sided talk, you don't call me back
Yeah times were hard and when you left they got harder
My bed got colder and my room got darker
I'm still in love I know so are you
Why'd I pray for the rain when our skies were blue
I'm still in love I know so are you
Let's talk tonight and we can talk it through
I see, dead eyes on the verge of suicide
I realize it's not alright
I'll find my way to idolize it
In my eyes, I'll reach the sky
Tell me if I'm lost, and all the days it took
I get high like that, without a second look
And I need breathing room, if I don't see you soon
I think I'll die inside, I'll blame it all on you
I think I'm gone for good, it happened faster than it should
And now it's upside down, I must've misunderstood
But I still wish you were here, and maybe one day you will
And while I wait for you, I'll pop another pill
Black long sleeve I can see you're freezing
You know I'll stop your bleeding
Let's not make this hard, let's just hit restart
Messed up badly, how'd this all happen
This world's a mess so please don't leave us stranded
I'm swimming in the ocean of fear
Back where I started, no closer each year
I think, maybe you'll start to disappear
As I cope with these emotions, I don't wanna get closer
I see, dead eyes on the verge of suicide
I realize it's not alright
I'll find my way to idolize it
In my eyes, I'll reach the sky
Dead eyes on the verge of suicide
I realize it's not alright
I'll find my way to idolize it
In my eyes, I'll reach the sky
I wanna see you happy for once
So tell me what you hurt so bad
I wish that I could cheer you up
You're all that I really have
Call me back if you find the time
Ah ah ah
It's been a while and you're on my mind
Ah ah ah
I'm good, I'm good, I...
Ah ah ah ah
Same page... we used to be on the same page, yeah
I don't wanna suffer through it
But is that attainable?
Cause each time my heart gets broken
I fall down a deeper hole
The sun and the stars
Feel kinda far
Kinda like you
So please if you could
Call me back if you find the time
Ah ah ah
It's been a while and you're on my mind
Ah ah ah
I'm good, I'm good, I...
Ah ah ah ah
Same page... we used to be on the same page, yeah
This shit makes me way too anxious
I need it to go away
I wish that I could embrace it
But that means I'd have to stay
Finding my way is hard
But with you I know I could
I don't mean to sound alarmed
But please if you would
Call me back if you find the time
Ah ah ah
It's been a while and you're on my mind
Ah ah ah
I'm good, I'm good, I...
Ah ah ah ah
Same page... we used to be on the same page, yeah
I might have to come to terms with it
The way it is
Need a sign
Need a sign
Need a sign
Yeah I really wish someone told me life was this hard I really wish I didn't feel this pain in my heart I can't believe I really even made it this far You can tell I been through hell and back, you can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back Lately, it's been hard to breathe, It's like my lungs collapsed You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back Tell 'em that
I ain't giving up, that shit ain't in my blood I've been judged, I been told that everything I do sucks I've abused this alcohol, I keep refilling my cup I seen them stab me in the back but come around like it's love Been through the ringer, and life just keep on tryna fight me like it's Jerry Springer But you know I never back down, I'ma keep on swinging I've been searching for my purpose, I've been looking for my meaning Maybe I'm here to teach the people to chase what they been dreaming Yeah the journey been crazy, I ain't gon lie about it Lost a lot of people on the way, I cried about it I got my woman's love, I think I would die without it I was at the bottom, had to fight to get the hell up out it
Yeah I really wish someone told me life was this hard I really wish I didn't feel this pain in my heart I can't believe I really even made it this far You can tell I been through hell and back You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back Lately, it's been hard to breathe, It's like my lungs collapsed You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back Tell 'em that
I can't believe this platform that I gained I've been battling my demons since a really young age And all I ever wanted was to help somebody with pain Never think you are alone, way too many feel the same Can't lie, often wonder how I made it this far Thought I'd be dead by 21, I've been hiding the scars I'm a closed book who only opens up through the art Never question my intentions, only spoke from the heart I'm just a small-town kid holding onto my dreams Since day one, I never talk, only let the music speak Dark nights, bright days, but there's no going back The top really means more when you been through hell and back
Yeah I really wish someone told me life was this hard I really wish I didn't feel this pain in my heart I can't believe I really even made it this far You can tell I been through hell and back, you can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back Lately, it's been hard to breathe, It's like my lungs collapsed You can see the scars on me, I been through hell and back Tell 'em that
Needless to say, I keep in check She was a bad-bad, nevertheless (yeah) Callin' it quits now, baby, I'm a wreck (wreck) Crash at my place, baby, you're a wreck (wreck)
Needless to say, I'm keepin' in check She was a bad-bad, nevertheless Callin' it quits now, baby, I'm a wreck Crash at my place, baby, you're a wreck
Thinkin' in a bad way, losin' your grip Screamin' at my face, baby, don't trip Someone took a big L, don't know how that felt Lookin' at you sideways, party on tilt
Ooh-ooh Some things you just can't refuse She wanna ride me like a cruise And I'm not tryna lose
Then you're left in the dust Unless I stuck by ya You're a sunflower I think your love would be too much Or you'll be left in the dust Unless I stuck by ya You're the sunflower You're the sunflower
Every time I'm leavin' on you You don't make it easy, no, no Wish I could be there for you Give me a reason to, oh, oh
Every time I'm walkin' out I can hear you tellin' me to turn around Fightin' for my trust and you won't back down Even if we gotta risk it all right now, oh
I know you're scared of the unknown (-known) You don't wanna be alone (alone) I know I always come and go (and go) But it's out of my control
And you'll be left in the dust Unless I stuck by ya You're the sunflower I think your love would be too much Or you'll be left in the dust Unless I stuck by ya You're the sunflower You're the sunflower Yeah
Oh, no, no Do you love me like I love you? Can you touch me like I touch you? Look in my soul, an empty hole I don't really mind if you go and hide I'll sit here and fight for us Just another night, laying in our lies Acting like we're both in love
But I think you're beautiful Unusual, how I fell for you How I fell for you Delusional, delusional how I fell for you Could you blame me? Your lips, your kiss Were like honey and wine (So sweet) Me and you, me and you Inseparable at times
We go on, yeah, time goes on We hold on, we hold on Then we let go, no time to hold on I can't fight this much longer Our feelings getting stronger Just tell me lies, just tell me lies Act like you care Don't ask me why, don't ask me why I need you there 'cause
You're beautiful Unusual, how I fell for you How I fell for you Delusional, delusional how I fell for you (How I fell for you) Could you blame me? (Could you blame me?) Your lips, your kiss Were like honey and wine Me and you, me and you Inseparable at times
This picture keeps playin' Don't know what it's sayin' No words, just a smile on your face No hurt, take me back to that place I wanna ride around with the top down I wanna tell the whole town That you're mine That you're mine That you're mine Because
You're beautiful Unusual, how I fell for you How I fell for you (How I fell for you) Delusional, delusional how I fell for you Could you blame me? Your lips, your kiss Were like honey and wine Me and you, me and you Inseparable at times
